loyhargil
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She who perseveres
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Post by loyhargil on Dec 31, 2010 6:36:09 GMT -8
Sorry, just totally venting here. Disregard, just have to get it out.
Yesterday, I woke up at 3 am with a migraine. Sumatriptan finally kicked in at about 4. Slept until 5:30, half an hour past my usual wake-up time.
Spent all day yesterday downing caffeine drinks, which I know is counterproductive. But, considering I had to work half a day then drive a five-hour round trip to meeting daughter's dad halfway to drop her off for the holiday, I didn't really feel like I had a choice.
Also yesterday ... anyone had abdominal laparascopic surgery? Know the shoulder pain from the gases moving upward? Had that all freaking day. Along with knots in my calf and thigh muscles, an upset stomach, and chest pains. And the leftover headache.
Still feeling shaky as hell, headachy, heartburnish, shoulder pain-y and all that crap today, after another rotten night's sleep, and I'm just so over this shit at the moment.
Of course, probably also doesn't help that I'm sitting here filling out additional child support enforcement paperwork against the ex, which I know is either gonna enrage him or make him all passive-aggressivey, both of which I just hate dealing with.
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Post by kmcm on Jan 1, 2011 4:59:24 GMT -8
Don't apologise for venting. That's what this board was created for. I wish i could help you get through this. Bring you a cuppa vanilla hazelnut tea, and a good book to snuggle down with, then a nice long guilt free nap.
Dealing with visitation and child support is stressful for even the most healthy people, when you have over bullshit things getting in the way it only adds to the pain.
You are doing a great job being you. Don't ever forget it.
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morciel
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Post by morciel on Jan 1, 2011 7:10:13 GMT -8
*copies and pastes everything kmcm said and changes three words so it look original* there is also the fact that you had to deal with all that crap and you still exist in a non-homicidal rage state, which i know some people, like myself, couldn't do. so you've a strength of will greater than at least me, which is saying something. *trans-interweb high five and hug if you need it*
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loyhargil
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Post by loyhargil on Jan 3, 2011 8:00:36 GMT -8
kmcm, I'm about ready to pay for your airline ticket to bring me the tea, lol! Man, that sounds good!
morciel, as for lack of homicidal rage? I don't credit it to will so much as to laziness. I'm just too tired to kill him, so I fill out paperwork, lol! ;-)
Ah well. Thursday's drive sucked beyond belief. I came home shaking, headachy, and generally miserable. Yesterday's drive to pick her up went much better. I'm sore and tired as hell today, but overall, not as sucky as I had anticipated.
Ah, to be so grateful for acceptable suckage as opposed to outrageous suckage, lol!
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Post by Pahz on Jan 3, 2011 9:55:07 GMT -8
Killing takes so much energy and just imagine how sore you'd be after all that rage-y adrenaline leaves your body. Paperwork is much easier thing to accept.
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Post by kmcm on Jan 4, 2011 17:37:47 GMT -8
The tea is a decaf made by a company named Yogi. There is also a nummy dessert tea by stash that is almost as good, it's a vanilla tea as well. Just add a bit of dairy and a bit of sugar and you are in heaven.
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loyhargil
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Post by loyhargil on Jan 6, 2011 6:36:32 GMT -8
Tea - Ah, tea, I would love some tea!
And some pent up rage against the ex gone. Years ago I took a hammer to the dessert plate the girl he ended up banging during our marriage counseling gave us as a wedding present. Felt awesome. Kinda wish I had the plate back so I could do it again.
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Post by winterwhispers on Jan 6, 2011 21:52:46 GMT -8
Damn. that's some good therapy. Wish I would have had something like that... Stupid asshats...
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