I am tired of being the strong one for every single fucking one of my friends, with no one to lean on when I need someone.
I'm tired of doing the same for my family. I'm tired of my mother not only not having a shoulder and a lap for me, but telling me if I just smile, things will be better.
I'm tired of the pain and the meds and the cleaning and the working and trying to make ends meet when I can barely keep my eyes open to work my regular shift, much less the extra hours I have to put in.
I'm tired of always being the "friend" and never the "girlfriend."
You have people to lean on, you just have to get used to us being there. You have my number, i have two shoulders, call me and use one of them whenever you like. Dont EVER worry about wearing out your welcome as i'll likely bitch right along with you. You can just call and cry, and i'll listen.
I bet there are others here in the board willing to listen as well, and you can always just rant it out here, let it just go and flow. It doesn't even have to be coherent. Stream of conscious thoughts are fine too.
I'd date you, but i'm married and i'm pretty sure you are straight.
I hope you get your meds taken care of and adjusted as needed.
i'm a figment of my own imagination....sometimes i don't exist
I'm just not used to having someone to lean on. I know my friends would be happy to, and now i know you are too!, but every time I need one, it seems they have worse problems than I.
An example: I was going to tell a friend about the headache I couldn't shake, only to discover that his ex hasn't let him talk to his daughter in over a month (his birthday was yesterday, too), and my complaint seems petty.
That's why I like this board - it doesn't matter how small the problem was, ya'll will listen and commiserate.
And I'd date you, too, but you're married, and I am straight.
The new meds seem to be working - I haven't burst into tears in 3 days! Not since the cholesterol news, and I think that was justified tears.