Post by loyhargil on Jun 17, 2011 6:26:02 GMT -8
I don't know that I'm reaching limits exactly, but damn, I'm just sick as shit of my body right now.
I diet, diet, diet, I can't lose weight. All I've done is finally stave off the weight gains. The doctor thinks they're caused by the gabipentin for fibro (I put on 30 pounds since I started taking them, and trust me, I did NOT need more weight - I was outgrowing work clothes as quick as I could buy them). I don't think the gabi is even necessarily working anymore. I now have arhtirtis in my left foot so exercise is painful, and I don't have time to get to a pool for water aerobics, since we have two kids and my husband's gone back to college (night school). I was stretching at night for a while, but lately I've been so tired, I fall asleep sitting upright on the rocking chair in my son's room when it's his bedtime.
Oh, and the arthritis in my foot? Took 'em two weeks to diagnosis it (after exploring gout, deep vein thrombosis, and tendonitis), and all they've told me to do is take Tylenol Arthritis. I'm calling back today and saying, "Look, ain't working!!!" Every day, it's swollen, red, and painful. If I do any amount of walking, it wakes me up throbbing that night (not that it doesn't throb immediately afterwards, too). With kids, and a job that requires a fair amount of travel, I can't just sit on my ass all the time and nurse my f*cking foot.
I caught my arm in a door about a month ago. The bruise is still f*cking there, and I still can barely raise my left arm past shoulder-height. I'm beginning to think I more than bruised it.
Oh, which also brings me to, because of the f*cking fibro, I can't tell until I'm sick or injured until it's well on its way, because I'm just used to being groggy and in pain all the time. Which is why I'm all, "Hmmm, my arm should be better by now." And why a while back I was (disgusting overshare) horking up gigantic wads of green phlegm before I figured out I had already progressed into a sinus infection.
And on a personal level? Ex-husband is still pissed about having to pay child support (after a five f*cking year break), and there's been a realignment at work which means we have three attorneys covering what five or six used to cover, and we're expected to pick up the slack in each other's jurisdictions (spread over three states, plus the feds), and we don't have money for outside counsel in the budget to pick up anything when we get overscheduled. So, increased duties, increased travel. But, at least we didn't get a pay cut. There's that.
I am just tired. I told Mom I think I'd like to have a nervous breakdown, but I can't fit it into my schedule.
ETA: Oh, and my son is doing diagnosists with a psychiatrist in July for Asperger's. Three days of appointments in a row - one 2 hours, one 2 1/2 hours, and one 1 1/2 hours. Plus whatever therapies he needs after that. I don't think I'll ever have a moment to myself anymore. Not that I won't do whatever it takes for my kids, but Mommy just wants to crawl into a cave for a couple of years first...
I diet, diet, diet, I can't lose weight. All I've done is finally stave off the weight gains. The doctor thinks they're caused by the gabipentin for fibro (I put on 30 pounds since I started taking them, and trust me, I did NOT need more weight - I was outgrowing work clothes as quick as I could buy them). I don't think the gabi is even necessarily working anymore. I now have arhtirtis in my left foot so exercise is painful, and I don't have time to get to a pool for water aerobics, since we have two kids and my husband's gone back to college (night school). I was stretching at night for a while, but lately I've been so tired, I fall asleep sitting upright on the rocking chair in my son's room when it's his bedtime.
Oh, and the arthritis in my foot? Took 'em two weeks to diagnosis it (after exploring gout, deep vein thrombosis, and tendonitis), and all they've told me to do is take Tylenol Arthritis. I'm calling back today and saying, "Look, ain't working!!!" Every day, it's swollen, red, and painful. If I do any amount of walking, it wakes me up throbbing that night (not that it doesn't throb immediately afterwards, too). With kids, and a job that requires a fair amount of travel, I can't just sit on my ass all the time and nurse my f*cking foot.
I caught my arm in a door about a month ago. The bruise is still f*cking there, and I still can barely raise my left arm past shoulder-height. I'm beginning to think I more than bruised it.
Oh, which also brings me to, because of the f*cking fibro, I can't tell until I'm sick or injured until it's well on its way, because I'm just used to being groggy and in pain all the time. Which is why I'm all, "Hmmm, my arm should be better by now." And why a while back I was (disgusting overshare) horking up gigantic wads of green phlegm before I figured out I had already progressed into a sinus infection.
And on a personal level? Ex-husband is still pissed about having to pay child support (after a five f*cking year break), and there's been a realignment at work which means we have three attorneys covering what five or six used to cover, and we're expected to pick up the slack in each other's jurisdictions (spread over three states, plus the feds), and we don't have money for outside counsel in the budget to pick up anything when we get overscheduled. So, increased duties, increased travel. But, at least we didn't get a pay cut. There's that.
I am just tired. I told Mom I think I'd like to have a nervous breakdown, but I can't fit it into my schedule.
ETA: Oh, and my son is doing diagnosists with a psychiatrist in July for Asperger's. Three days of appointments in a row - one 2 hours, one 2 1/2 hours, and one 1 1/2 hours. Plus whatever therapies he needs after that. I don't think I'll ever have a moment to myself anymore. Not that I won't do whatever it takes for my kids, but Mommy just wants to crawl into a cave for a couple of years first...