Post by juniper on Aug 2, 2011 21:03:29 GMT -8
My mother is a huge believer in Karma. Me, not so much. This year has tested her belief badly, though, as it relates to our family, and each straw feels like it should be the last.
It's to the point where I'm wondering if Karma is real, and we were all real assholes in a past life or something.
I know that the world has it's ups and downs, and everyone is hit by them, but really?
We started January with me having surgery, my grandmother finally beginning to grieve the loss of her husband a year before, and a huge fight with my then roommate.
February, I moved out of the place I was sharing with my roommate, my sister moved back home because she was downsized and couldn't find other work (she's still out of work, joining the Army in October).
March, I broke up with the first man I'd been in a relationship with since my ex-husband. Turns out, he'd been seeing someone else since February.
April, my newly surgeried knee goes out on me, my grandmother gives herself a concussion, nearly breaks her neck, and can't even remember the fall. We discover that she's been taking 2 sleep aids and a glass of wine every night to sleep.
May, my uncle is diagnosed with terminal cancer. As though that's not enough, my work sends out an e-mail telling everyone to hope for the best, but expect the worst.
June, I see my uncle for the last time. I turn 31. I finish my novel (yay for a bit of good news!) and work gets worse.
July, my uncle passes away, they take my dad's promotion away from him (let him keep the money, though) and send him to a more dangerous location in the desert. The doctor tells me that my continuing health problems are caused by stress, and, after going over all the stressors in my life, we determine that the only one I control is the writing (never giving that up!) and my job. so, job hunting, which was already happening, must be ramped up.
And now it's August. My lease is up at the end of the month. I have to have a new job, or I'm going to end up at home with my mother and sister.
Fucking Karma - who's did I get?*
*not in any way intended to make light of/fun of or denigrate anyone else's belief system!
It's to the point where I'm wondering if Karma is real, and we were all real assholes in a past life or something.
I know that the world has it's ups and downs, and everyone is hit by them, but really?
We started January with me having surgery, my grandmother finally beginning to grieve the loss of her husband a year before, and a huge fight with my then roommate.
February, I moved out of the place I was sharing with my roommate, my sister moved back home because she was downsized and couldn't find other work (she's still out of work, joining the Army in October).
March, I broke up with the first man I'd been in a relationship with since my ex-husband. Turns out, he'd been seeing someone else since February.
April, my newly surgeried knee goes out on me, my grandmother gives herself a concussion, nearly breaks her neck, and can't even remember the fall. We discover that she's been taking 2 sleep aids and a glass of wine every night to sleep.
May, my uncle is diagnosed with terminal cancer. As though that's not enough, my work sends out an e-mail telling everyone to hope for the best, but expect the worst.
June, I see my uncle for the last time. I turn 31. I finish my novel (yay for a bit of good news!) and work gets worse.
July, my uncle passes away, they take my dad's promotion away from him (let him keep the money, though) and send him to a more dangerous location in the desert. The doctor tells me that my continuing health problems are caused by stress, and, after going over all the stressors in my life, we determine that the only one I control is the writing (never giving that up!) and my job. so, job hunting, which was already happening, must be ramped up.
And now it's August. My lease is up at the end of the month. I have to have a new job, or I'm going to end up at home with my mother and sister.
Fucking Karma - who's did I get?*
*not in any way intended to make light of/fun of or denigrate anyone else's belief system!